Hi friends, good morning. I hope you’re all doing well.
Today I’m coming back here to my favorite place after a good while, after a good break from writing. Partly because I was working on another project, partly because, honestly, I’ve been procrastinating so many things lately.
I have so many projects I want to get done. There is so much in my mind, so much I want to do, and then I push it away. Every single day. I even finished two Korean dramas in the meantime. Two!
It’s insane how much procrastination can take away from our lives. It really is. I’ve been feeling so overwhelmed with projects, income stuff, kids, house, photos, decorations. It feels endless.
And laundry, oh my gosh. I procrastinate that so much. Folding, putting clothes away, I just don’t enjoy it. Hate is strong, but it doesn’t bring me pleasure. Still, when I start, it’s fine. I feel good afterward. Starting is the problem.
And why does everything end up on the kitchen island? I clean it today, two days later, it’s full again. How?
I’ve been trying to meal prep, organize finances, do everything right, but it all piles up, and then even the things I love, like writing here, become something I avoid.
I wanted to record audio so you could listen instead of read, but editing felt huge. My last one was thirty minutes, and I thought, “Nope, I can’t.” So I didn’t share the post at all, even though it was full of faith and really heartfelt. It’s still there. Not because I didn’t want to share, but because I didn’t want to deal with editing.
Today I thought, I’m posting without the audio. Whenever I can record and edit, I will. Right now, I need to take some pressure off. I don’t want one thing that makes me procrastinate to steal the pleasure I have in writing.
Don’t let procrastination take away your victory, or the possibility of getting something done. Because the more we procrastinate, the worse it feels. Then we spiral.
Being a mom with so much going on can be a lot. I’ve been caught in it. I even think I need to go back to therapy, honestly.
I’m trying. I want to do better, be more present, be myself again, not lose myself in procrastination. I don’t have it figured out, but I’m trying.
I hope you don’t give up on me. Stay here with me, even when it’s messy.
Thank you so much for reading, for listening, for letting me share my thoughts and emotions. Have a blessed day.
With love & grace,
Tay
